Rumors

I told my friend, who we'll call Hero, about my situation with Sam and Sally.

He said, "Don't worry dude, she's not that into him."

I was astounded.

Can it be?

I asked him.

"What do you know!"

Apparently Hero was hanging around school with Sally and this boy called Fool (the guy is a lovable idiot). The three of them were talking about various things, and Fool said, quiet bluntly, as this is his nature, "you know Sam's hella trying to get on you, right?"

Hero says that Sally said she didn't see Sam like that, certianly not as a love interest.

I was temporarily overjoyed when I heard this, but then I asked Hero when this happened.

"Idk. Like 2 weeks ago..."

Fuck

A lot can happen in 2 weeks...

And Sampson is persistant, always sitting with her, talking. Now that he knows I know, I feel like I can't ever talk to her without him being there.

Sampson didn't say a word to me today. I thought he was mad but Michael told me he popped Dextrose before coming to school, and the side effect is paranoia and anger. I guess that explains his mood.

At first I was heartbroken over Sally and sad that she might hook up with my friend, now I just want to flick him out of the way. Starting to piss me off.

I mean FUCK.

Sampson has had plenty of sexual experience. I have none. Sampson's gotten his dick sucked numerous times. I've never kissed a girl.

I NEED THIS MORE THAN HE DOES.

I'M MORE DESERVING OF HER.

I'M BETTER FOR HER THAN HE IS.

• Sam jokes around with her. I can make her laugh, hard.
• Sam just wants her pussy. I want to make her happy.
• Sam doesn't see past, "a couple of hookups". I want to form a relationship, I want to treat her right.

Really, I'm just being selfish. I like her a lot, and I want her just to see how it feels, to have a romantic relationship and all that. I don't expect to have sex, I just want to be loved/to love.

If I don't start soon, when will I? College? Find some desperate med student who wants a quick fuck, and mark it off my list?

Sally is tender. Cute. Adorable. Funny. Curvy. An anomaly, as she's not very popular but one of the finest girls at our school.




I hate everyone.

and fuck you too, stupid bitch